perception of Perfection

Ever been in a time where you thought that life was going well and that it was okay? Not perfect...just good enough for you to know that you're happy doing the things you do and fighting for the things you want. Then along comes something that you wouldn't have thought possible, because you think that it's something only wished for but never a reality? You live it, and it's the best thing to have ever happened to you. If you once thought that you were content with your life, having this new thing filled every void in your life especially those you never knew existed and those you've denied yourself of. Then you think that maybe complete and perfect happiness is not impossible after all.

To lose what you've perceived as perfection is nothing short of devastating. Everything crumbles and the worst part is that, you can't even go back to the life you've had before it. Because now you've experienced the one thing that has made you whole and complete. Losing it makes you as vulnerable as the most fragile of glass.

You then gain some sense of balance again...just enough to brave a smile for show. But every second, you wonder why did you ever allow yourself to touch perfection. It was better not knowing...better thinking of it as something imaginary, which could only be fantasized about.

Because...the next stage of lost is the feeling of not being good enough to hold on and to have perfection. You spend endless hours thinking where you went wrong and why you're not good enough. Friends starts commenting on how tired you look, how your eyes seem more vacant as the days go by. And all you have to say to it is stress and over work.

You were better not knowing. You were better off content and just working your way to chasing your dreams...yet perfection came and took everything away. And there you are...a thousand pieces of puzzle not knowing where to start again. Half wishing to have perfection again...half wishing it never came to your life.