For simply being alive

This entry was supposed to be about the hectic week I’ve had this week. It was supposed to be filled with the stress of completing the macroeconomic project on sub-prime mortgage crisis, how I and many others are annoyed at Cent, how I stayed up until 3am compiling the project paper and ended up not studying for my chemistry test, how I screwed up the first question in the test, plus every other groans and moans over the week. I had planned a long list of complaints, until a couple of hours ago.

Edna called me somewhere around 11pm. Well basically I just thought she wanted to ask me what it was that she needed to remember to bring home, or whatever. When she said she had bad news, my first thought was, ‘OMG, something happened to grandmother’. When she told me Allen R. passed away, it actually took a few seconds to actually sink in. Being the person who could be counted on to saying the wrong thing at the wrong time, I actually told her that she was going home at the right timing. How amazingly dumb can I be? Of course I didn’t mean it that way, but it was out of my mouth before I could actually think it over.

The news was seriously a shock. Few weeks ago, when I got that sms to pray for his operation and didn’t hear any news after it, I assumed that he was doing well. I mean no news = good, right? Which is why, Edz’s call was kind of a shock.

I’m sorry that Allen passed away. He was a nice guy. But most of all he was young, and that’s what makes it more sad. It’s sad when someone dies, but when that someone is old it’s easier to accept it as a part of life and it’s not as depressing as it is when it happens to the young. When death strikes the young, all I can think of is how young that person is. How full of life, full of plans; plans that are now crudely summed up as ‘unfinished business’.

Thinking about what I initially planned to blog about, I realize how it all seems so trivial now. A waste of time to dwell about, because here I am sitting in my room, at the liberty of doing anything I want – alive. Time is always wasted on the petty things.

I’m sorry for the family’s lost. I’m sorry for Aunty Meg, because much as it’s hard on the family, it’s harder on the mother who was there from the beginning, until the end. It’s a small consolation to know that he’s now out of pain, and much as everyone wishes this didn’t happen, at least we seek solace in knowing that he is in a better place.

So here I am sitting on my bed typing this entry, thankful for the air that I breath, thankful for all the things that I've complained about, thankful because I have tomorrow, next week, next month and hopefully a lot more nexts to look forward to, and most of all thankful for simply being alive.

Brunch at Chilli's

As promised, here are the pictures from our Chilli's Thursday

The drink that made us happy ;-)

After the third glass

My current favorite on the menu

Henry's burger

Well, I finally got to post the pictures taken from my phone. Still waiting for the one's from Kenny's camera. I can't believe that I had to go to the library for this.

Add on: Hahaha...I totally forgot about the pie Wern Tyng ordered. It was simply scrumptious. Observe it's sinfulness :)

Bellyaching...

I remember back in secondary school when I used to bellyache about the grading system being to high. When I moved to SFX I was beyond happy to find out that 46% was considered a pass. Few months later, I was again bellyaching about it still being to difficult to pass, especially for add maths to which I certainly had no hidden talents for.

Now that I'm in ADP, I would kick my old self for complaining so much about that grading system. I now consider that system a walk in the park considering with what I have to face now. I find myself half dead with ADP's grading system. 70% for a pass and 90% to get an A has simply left me breathless, chasing to even get the grades and making sure there aren't any potential hidden ones anywhere.

With assignment deadlines coming near, tests and more tests in the upcoming week, exams next month, PASS every week, I'm simply looking around for some spare time to take a break. If that simply cannot be achieved, I hereby promise myself to self-pampering once the exams are over.

P/S: I hope mother does come after my exams, so I can do the complete self-pampering package.

Say What Again?

Use your creativity to save your cash today. You will be able to make it enjoyable.

That's what my daily horoscope advices me to do. What a bunch of bollocks is what I would say. To begin with, I have yet to get last semester's check, which keeps on getting delayed by accounts department. It's already near the end of the semester and I've still yet to collect last semester's check. So how am I supposed to make my dough enjoyable? After all these unnecessary frustrations, I am very much happy that this is my last semester. It's probably one of my wisest choice to take the summer off, especially with the current administration of Ms. Beloved Program Director.

The only problem now is looking for a place to do an internship. I was thinking to do it with a newspaper agency, but with no experience in journalism the chances of getting hired as an intern is seriously next to zero. Sure I should submit my articles, but there isn't that much to begin with. Well I guess simply sending a request can't hurt anybody anyway. Poor Ms. Ng whom I'm bound to rush for a recommendation letter.

Ramblings For A Lazy Day

I love the weekends. It's a day to simply be lazy and just be lazy. I love how I can choose to do nothing the whole day and re-watch episodes of Grey's Anatomy, Heroes, Desperate Housewives or Gossip Girl. Too bad I can't find episodes of Big Love. I mean don't tell me you can't download it because of its storyline is based on the Church of LDS. Still maybe I should try watching Lipstick Jungle and The L Word. I know that I'm saving One Tree Hill for my 3 months summer break.

I am so glad that I am finally done and over with university applications. At least now my only focus would be assignments and the almost weekly tests that are killing me. But with that done and over with, the waiting for application acceptance is causing just a little bit of anxiety as well. Oh yeah, congrats to Wern Tyng by the way for getting accepted to CSU, Fresno.

Urgh...*stretches*

It's really too bad that I didn't get my check on Friday. I mean I know after waiting like almost 3 months for it, a weekend can't kill me, but I was hoping that if I received it on Friday, at least I could have gone to the hairdresser today and pamper myself to a new hairdo. OR I could finally get that FCUK sunglasses I've been wanting to buy. Too bad I can't buy that Lulu Guiness one I simply adore, but I don't believe in spending a whole semester of hard earned (not to mention my heart aches as well) money on simply one item. I know that I am getting the money on either Monday or Tuesday anyway, so I can go ahead with my plans, but I simply don't believe in spending money that has yet to be banked in into my account.

That said and done, I miss May Hon! I miss her pestering me to go eat sushi. I miss going to Sushi Zan Mai or Sakae Sushi with her. I miss fasting from sushi due to overspending on sushi AND I've simply just remembered that the both of us just never got to trying out the Japanese restaurant she saw in Sg. Wang (or was it Low Yat). PLUS I really wanted to bring her to Jogoya (if that's the way you spell it) to eat all that Salmon sashimi. Who cares about over consuming mercury and going crazy anyway, when the taste is sublimly awesome-ness. I can't wait to either see her when she comes back in the summer, or if I have the cash to visit her in Fullerton.

With dad finally agreeing to me going to the States instead of Australia, it's 4 months away now til I leave. Scary but seriously fun! I know I'm still waiting to get accepted into either one universities but I really can't help feeling excited. And much as I do want to go to Iowa State, with so many people and my sayangs in or going to SUNY, Buffalo I'm torn between both. But graduating from the same U as dad would also be really cool. Well I'll decide when the time comes.

Hmmm...rainy Saturdays. I simply love snuggling under my blanket :)

Fresh Start

After everything that has happened in the past couple of months, I knew what I needed was a fresh start. I needed to leave behind everything that has happened and simply close the chapter of my previous blog (not that it was much to look at after all :p). So with that said, this would be the new chapter of my blog life. My every pant and groan, my laughters, bad moments - everything.

No more turning back! From here onwards it's bound to be a forward motion in my life.

Cheers. *lifts glass and takes a sip of wine*